Now it was one thing to want an alien woman and live with her on the Earth, married or not which I surely would have done, but it was quite another to do all of that and live with her on her world, which was like a bridge too far.
At least for me.
And when I told her this, too say that she was furious with me, was putting it mildly.
She then informed me that that we were done in no uncertain terms because for her, it was one thing to have relations with a common alien, even bear his half-alien children, it was quite another to surrender the the privileges she had long enjoyed as a royal of Vhaer, which she would have surrendered if she'd chosen to live with me on the Earth.
See, her people were progressive, as progressive as a people with a royal family could be, as I would have been welcomed amongst them, as an Ambassador of Earth, with duties that would have allowed me to live a good life and still pursue my heart's desire, both as a man, which was her and as a creative, which is what I am, through and through.
With a captive audience too, as the consort of said princess, which I didn't take into account, because I am a fool. A stupidly shortsighted fool who couldn't get out of m y own way and see that I could have had all I wanted, if I had just been willing to live on Vhaer.
But I said no, when she sweetly asked me to move to Vhaer with her.
I know, what a stupid decision that I made, only regret didn't come to me immediately, which would have saved our relationship and not landed me the sentence that I'm now serving.
Though as prisons go I'm sure, I really can't complain about how I'm living now as I live in a simple house on a pretty little property in the middle of nowhere on the lovely world of Vhaer, which has no need of great security because if I even thought of escaping, I'd very soon be dead because the desert is foreboding, especially for an unimpressive human, which physically, is what I am.
So I have none of the typical trappings of prisons like bars, guards and bad food since leaving the property unaccompanied would mean my death so guards aren't needed, as I only need someone to look after the upkeep of the house and I cook my own food, not that I'm a great cook, because I cook simple food that I quite like and I've made do with some of their crops and been able to choose some crops from the Earth that grow quite well in the Vhaeran soil like potatoes, asparagus and lettuce, because I would absolutely hate to go without the goodly taste of these three foods.
Not that anyone should care about what a prisoner would be missing of course though the crime of which I was convicted for is hardly the most serious of crimes and wouldn't have been something I was charged with if it didn't involve an alien princess whose family demanded I be charged and sentenced on their world.
But nonetheless, I'm a prisoner and I understand if you don't care if I suffer any, because I am serving a sentence, even if the crime I committed was one of what, that's a crime worth serving a sentence for when it happens all the time on earth as ending a relationship happens all the time here.
Just not against a rejected princess.
So here I am, on Vhaer after all, only lacking the freedom that I would have had, if I had accepted her offer, and continued to be with her, where I would have had more time to do what I love doing than I have now because they've seen fit to have that as a punishment since I don't have the normal restrictions of a prisoner and I can't very well be a prisoner without some restrictions.
And these are those as I am only permitted three hours a day to do what I love doing, which weighs on me heavily,.
As for what happens to what I create, namely the drawings and what little writing I'm doing now, that is given to the people of Vhaer, without gain to me, instead of having the acclaim and success that I would have otherwise had.
So again, I was a fool as I arrived at the same place, only without the same benefits that I would have had, if I hadn't minded moving here with her, when I wasn't going to be losing much in said move as I have little that I had to leave behind that I would have missed.
My parents of course, that goes without saying.
Though they would have had reason to be happy for me as I would have found the two things that I'd long missed, namely success and love, with both coming from the same source.
And they would have liked the need to travel to Vhaer to see me because they like to leave home, though this would have been their longest journey by far.
But again, I didn't even think about that.
If I had, I would have been very happy now and busier than I could have dreamed possible on my own.
Yes, I've regretted my decision ever since I made it and there's not a damn thing that I can do about it now because the past is the past and I can't go back for a do-over since it doesn't work that way.
And even if I could go back, I could still make the same stupid mistake.
No, I just have to accept this sentence and live my way through it, though only having three hours a day where the computer and the art supplies are available to use is the worst thing that could happen to me.
It isn't even that it's the same time each day either because I was always able to write and draw at any time of the day. It's that I can't do my arts longer.
Yeah I get it, no one wants to hear me whinge about anything since I'm a prisoner and I almost caused an interstellar incident with my reckless heart and stupid unthinking mind which is all the more reason to be like ha ha you idiot, you almost caused the 2nd Interstellar war and for what?
Homesickness?
Cry me a river right?
So I'm sure there's been plenty of shit said and written about me.
And a movie too will surely be made about the idiot and the almost war though I'm not sure that I would want to see it.
Sadly, a movie about my life will be the only way anything to do with me will be told by Hollywood as the long held ream of having a story written by me will never be adapted.
And yeah, I have plenty of stories that if finished, would serve well as movies.
They just need to be seen, which is easier said than done.